Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Glory to God and on earth...Peace


Silent night, holy night. All is calm, all is bright...

It’s been about two months since I’ve blogged...so much has happened.
My friend, Dana Nelson, is in heaven...
celebrating Christmas in a way I can only enviously imagine.




Thanksgiving was celebrated with great joy and in the company of many people in our barn....about 60 family members and friends. We took turns giving joyous praise reports, expressing our deep love for one another and for the Lord.



In October we had the distinct pleasure of participating in a colon cancer event, the Undy 5000, thanks to my daughters, Ange and Nicole, who worked diligently in forming our team together....Linda’s Fanny Pack. It was awesome!  Thanks again to those of you who supported us.  We raised over $2500 for the cause.


 But the news that has me on my knees again is...
 my cancer has reared its ugly head.

I’m afraid I ‘jumped the gun’ so to speak (offsides it’s called in football) when proclaiming “Cancer Free” in big letters across my entry. A final check-up was needed  before such a bold proclamation could be announced.

After an internal examination by my surgeon, who didn’t like the wording in my cat scan, (I understood it to mean that “it looks good!” meant no cancer) a small nodule was discovered...left over from my chemo/radiation assault.

It seems I may be in the 20% of people where this type of treatment may not be as effective. A biopsy was ordered and it didn’t look good. He mentioned a possible re-section may be necessary....ostomy.

I went silent, all was not calm and someone turned out the light.

Unable to express my thoughts on this board... I abandoned it.

My peace had been shaken

You see, I struggled.  I struggled with the belief that I had been healed, that the treatment was successful and that I could put this nightmare behind me.

 But it was not to be.  I seems I have not yet finished this faith walk after all.

Another biopsy has been ordered by a specialist in Marietta who seemed hopeful after his internal examination and perusing of the last biopsy report, which left him “unimpressed”...and we are waiting for the results. We should know something this Friday.
We have a follow-up appointment with him in Marietta.

So, you see...I am not finished yet with this burden. I pray that He will open my eyes and heart to see what more He has to accomplish through this difficulty.

It is my hope that you will forgive me for the abrupt lapse in correspondence and that you will continue accompanying me on this journey.



Star of wonder, star of night, star with royal beauty bright....guide us to Thy perfect light.

Guide me Lord, closer and closer to You.....my perfect light.

Merry Christmas

to you and yours!




9 comments:

  1. It's a bitter-sweet; knowing that your still blogging so I can see into my sweet Linda's soul, but knowing why your blogging - the journey's not over. We are praying for you. Love you dearly!

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  2. Oh my sweet friend!!! I can only imagine how you feel! Sometimes we just are so disappointed in how our Father does things, but I know you join me in Job's sentiment, "Even though He slay me, WILL I TRUST HIM!!" We hang on to this world so tightly, when we are to LONG for Heaven. When we are faced with Heaven we seem to want to say, "OH!! Not yet, Lord." I pray that He will give you many more days of life here. We must be willing to accept whatever He decides for us. But He does understand! Jesus BEGGED our Father to take His cup away from Him if there was any other way!!! But once He knew it had to be done, he went willingly because of His great love for us!! I know you have begged for this to end and I have prayed it for you. I will continue to pray that God will work miraculously in this!! You are in my thoughts and prayers so often.

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  3. Linda,I am glad that you are blogging again. It brings to light what you have been bogged down with. The others have written such inspirational messages, that mine pales in comparison. Let me just say this, Our Lord is a compassionate Lord, He watches over us and protects those who He loves for they love and trust Him. His eye is on the sparrow, and His wings covers all. My fervent prayer is that for a clean report. I along with others will pray for God's miracles for you.

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  4. I am devastated to read this blog, Linda, but inspired as always by your unwavering faith. Know that we are with you in heart and in spirit as you step out again. Praying for you!

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  5. My dear sister Linda, I love you. I continue to pray with a fervrent heart for healing in your body. I know that our Father has healed your soul and continues to use you in a mighty big way during this storm in your life. Please know that I'm here for you in every way and please dont hesitate to call if you need me in any way. I'm so proud to be your little sister and hope that I can be as faithful as you when the storms of life hit me. Loving you always and forever, Mary :-}

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  6. So proud to have you as my Momma !
    XOXO

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  7. Oh, my heart hurts! Big, big squeezy hug, sweet friend. We too are back on our knees.

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  8. My sister, this news is merely a bump in the road and I am believing that you are healed and the doctors' pathology report will only prove that to be true! HE hasn't taken you this far to have you succumb to the storm, but to be perfected by it in. Your unwavering faith through this journey is an incredible inspiration to us all and we stand in the gap for you as your healing unfolds. I love you will all my heart, Linda.

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  9. HEY PRINCESS, I KNOW SOMETIMES WE WONDER WHAT GOD HAS ON HIS BEAUTIFUL MIND, WE WILL NEVER KNOW UNTIL THE DAY COMES. I DO KNOW THIS GOD HAS NOT ABANDONED YOU OR THE ONES THAT ARE PRAYING FOR YOUR HEALING. IT WILL COME, GODS GREAT HAND AND MIRACLE WILL RETURN YOU TO YOUR WARMTH. LINDA YOU ARE OF GREAT AND TRUE FAITH. YOU WILL BE RESTORED. THE ROAD IS BUMPY AS IT SEEMS, BUT THE LORD WILL SMOOTH YOUR JOURNEY. I LOVE YOU AND PRAY FOR YOU IN DEEP AND SOMBER WAY..............GARY LEE.............

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